COMMENTARY
My life is proof that God is close in suffering – even when we don’t believe it.
When I lost my brother to a tragic accident in 2020, my life began spiraling out of control. Having converted to Catholicism shortly before, I initially attempted to lean on my faith but quickly felt abandoned by God as additional trials compiled.
In 2021, I was diagnosed with esophageal cancer, an aggressive cancer typically seen in older men. In this, coupled with overwhelming grief from the loss of my brother and other unfortunate events, I felt relieved. I was so tired of fighting, tired of being broken, that I originally planned to keep this a secret and let nature take its course. I had completely lost my will to live.
Believing God had abandoned me, I abandoned all hope in Him. I stopped attending Mass, stopped praying, and let despair dictate my life. I had no idea the powerful healing that God had in store for me, much less the profound vision He had for my life.
A few months after my diagnosis, I had a change of heart and broke the news to my family and my boyfriend. I will never forget that
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